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Virgo Purgatorio
05:33
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There you go falling back in the deep dark hole
And no one knows if you'll answer the phone
Nothing's unfamiliar
There I go throwing light in the deep dark hole
But I don't know if you're already bones
Nothing's too dissimilar
Oh what a lovely mess you've made of this
A humble acquiescence to the abyss
They told me to live and let live so I did
I put you out of my head
But you've been dead for ten years now
They told me to live and let live so I did
But now you are dead
And you're back in my head now
Oh what a lovely mess you've made of this
A sudden descent into the abyss
There they go falling back in the deep dark hole
And no one knows if they'll answer the phone
Nothing's unfamiliar
There I go throwing light in the deep dark hole
But I don't know if they're already bones
Nothing's too dissimilar
Oh what a lovely mess I've made of this
A pointless flail against the abyss
You loved me, at least I hope that you loved me
And that you thought of me the way that I thought of you
I want you to be okay today
I want you to be okay ten years ago
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Narcissus
03:14
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Put down the knife no ones wants to see you like that
I wasn't there but I'm scared of where you're going
I'm not here to break your smile
I just want to know the truth
Behind the messages you deleted
Now you're yelling and cursing
Then gasping and sobbing
Then smiling again
But they're all hiding
Before leaving
Put down the pills no one wants to see you dying
You weren't there but I've had the same desire
But you already knew
There's only so much anyone can do
It's a pure isolation
Now I'm pining and chasing
Then fixing and failing
Then hiding again
But they're all smiling
Before leaving
In a pair of hesitating arms
I would gently expire
In the last tear I had a vision
Of what I had thought would be my redemption
Instead I look at my hands
Bloody from banging against a closed door
And you're smiling
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Mother Taurus
04:38
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Heavenly bull
I felt your pull
Storming up a spiral staircase
With debts unerased
Knock on the door
For a child with no heart
Under the floor
Is an alien star
Tell him that he's your only remaining light
But he'll never love anyone else in his life
Start the car
Leave him a human after all
Stumbling through
My hands trace the foggy walls
Round corners askew
Chilly and tall
My breath escapes
A moment too late
I am caught by a beast
Falling inside of me
Whispering
I love you and I'll tear you to pieces
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Frosty waves
Billowing across the sea
Empty bottles buried in the sand
Cutting at your feet
There's no reason to hide your reaction
To be as a cold them
Love without emergency
Can you dream it?
Frosty waves
Billowing across the sea
(There's no fault in shame)
Empty bottles buried in the sand
Cutting at your feet
(Such incapable hands)
There's no reason to hide your reaction
To be as cold as them
(What is life without desperation?)
Love without emergency
Can you dream it?
(Give me time)
An icy slope (I tread along)
To oblivion (Steady and slow)
You must know (I know)
All that once was will never be again
And even glaciers crumble to the wind
(But I just want you alive)
Is there comfort to infinity?
(Steeped in your mythology)
We are bigger than these stories
(There's a sickness to our secrecy)
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Nightmare for Capricorn
04:34
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Past a party of pretend you stumble through
You take my hand
I take you to our room
And we're falling down the deep dark hole again
More blood pours from your aging face
Than your compulsions can replace
Oh Demeter
How do you live with this grief?
I will drown in time
But it's your life that flashes before my eyes
You won't stop bleeding
But you're still smiling
Then foaming at the mouth you say I'll never win
No grand confession
No qualification
Just affection that you'll forget about in the end
You don't know that I'm in love
With everything you could have been
I'll never be done
I'll do this over again and again
Again and again
Again and again
Again and again
Dear Ariadne, was it worth it in the end?
A brother's blood
For fleeting love
You killed the monster that you couldn't comprehend
I try to keep my side of the street clean
I don't know if you know what that means
But I hear you in these rooms
We're just a story, we're nothing new
And the ending that I wrote where you got better
Will never see the light of day
I'm not your author
I'm just a child with much to say
But your ghost haunts everyone I try to save
From the backseat of the car where you were found
Such waves
They'll drive me to the ground
You don't know that I'm in love
With everything you could have been
I'll never be done
I'll do this over again and again
Again and again
Again and again
Again and again
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Lilacs
04:22
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Rising with a gasp
Helplessness unmasked
The stillness settles in my bones
Bearing fruit to silence
Memories of innocence
And distance from a troubled home
A father and a mother
At the end of a loop in time
Waiting for a final sign
Untying all the knots inside my skin
Start the car, it's not so hard
To be a human after all
Drawn to necessary reactions
And shouting from the hanging rafters
That we must turn to others
We must turn to others
We must turn to others
We must turn to others
We must turn to others
We must turn to others
We must turn to others
We must turn to others
Oh what a lovely, devastating, fleeting groan
Escaping from my crowded chest
And rounding in the dark for recompense
I won't think any less of you
If you held on to that glow
A sickness leaving your tired eyes
As we leave our sinking boat
So we must turn to others
We must turn to others
We must turn to others
We must turn to others
We must turn to others
We must turn to others
We must turn to others
We must turn to others
Every night as I fall asleep
My heartbeat spells a name
And I hold on to everything you said to me
About how everything needs to change
And every fire we lit in the place we once called home
Finally burns away to ash to be carried by the wind
Across the deep and infinite sea
Where the blooms you grew will find the sun again
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